Houston we got a problem... Money to fly there:P

My Bro in law made me a proposal, to go along with him to Houston when he goes there to work on an assignment with HP. Tempting it is because, will get to drive around there with free lodging and meals. And yes NASA is there, not the launch pad, but mission control. One of the pinnacles of aviation and aeronautics.

I always wanted to drive through the big open roads which one can see in the concluding parts of the movie "Castaway" when Tom Hanks were driving through the country side to deliver the FedEx package to the lady artist. Yep me and a Jeep jus rumbling down the open road with the radio blasting. AJ jus did it recently by driving to the Mojave desert to sneak a view of the stealth fighters and bombers in Area 52. But he got stopped so didnt get to see anything. For me, I'll be heading to NASA!!! hahaha

Speaking of AJ, I think he got a little shakened the other day. Last friday at almost midnight, he called me to ask if I want to play StarCraft with him online. This is the first time I have ever heard him asked to play computer games. He said he had jus landed from Denpasar Bali,and his adrenalin is rushing so couldnt sleep. The weather was shitty and he had to do a no nonsense approach back to Singapore. Well I guess, his passengers will never know about the stormy weather or tricky approach. But here it is a guy who is usually ice cool, asking to play comp games in the middle of the night.

Yeah things can get scary up there cos of the massive size and power of the elements up there. This is one of the few things which people outside aviation will never understand. And for budding passengers, my advice is to remain blissfully ignorant. Dun find out too much...LOL.

Thats all for now.More later.

我不爱

I hear lies from her again tonight...

我不爱 (Stephanie Sun)
作 曲 :陈笠妤 　　作 词 : 廖莹如　　

你消失了 爱 消失了 跟随的我 去哪里
我想过要放弃自己 说放弃 要放哪里
爱已经让我 认识我自己 在眼泪流下的味道里
感觉不到你 才知道丢了自己 我不爱~ 不能爱
你给的未来 我不爱~ 不能爱 你离开了我的现在
离开 现在不回来 oooh~ 在等待 等什么 没有你
没有爱存在 谁陪过我 无声哭泣 在我最糟的夜里
你肯定我所有的努力 最难忘那句“我了解你”
一切就变了 推翻了过去 空白 伤害 错会在哪里
我想我在哪里 我不爱~ 不要爱悲伤的存在
我不爱~ 你不在还以为能继续的爱 以为再也回不来
oh~ 在等待 等什么 我不知道 如何再爱
我不爱~ 不能爱 你给的未来 我不爱~ 不能爱
你离开了我的现在 离开 现在不回来
在等待 等什么 没有你 没有爱存在

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The Great Thief of Santiago

My past life?!!!

Tried Audrey's quiz from friendster.

It talks about finding out my past life...
http://quizme.stvlive.com/pastlife/quiz.php

Got almost the same answer the five times I tried.
The results are mighty fighter pilot, sleepy fighter pilot, shy fighter pilot, ugly fighter pilot, lazy fighter piiot.

Weird, I always thought it was so in my childhood because I like aviation so much. Hmm...maybe its really true.:)

Vincent Hoo was a Mighty Fighter Pilot in a past life. Discover your past lives @ Quiz Me

Life is getting complicated (CL)

Met up with with CL last night after a long day of driving, sleeping, game playing, running, thinking and more driving. We talk about how life goes in a full circle, talk about me meeting up with my first crush this week. It is surprising how life goes around and all of a sudden, things are back to a full loop.

Life has indeed returned back to a full loop for me, after all that has happened in the past few months. it has been complicated, joyful, heartbreaking. hopeful and disappointing in short span of a few months. Friends have been lost, and later found. Got into a relationship and lost it.Got backstabbed in my teaching career and later recovered. Got my wings clipped, and then back on flying status. Now I am back to where I began. Just like when it was December last year.

"Bad Karma" was what JS and other fellow pilots have described my condition. But some friends have mentioned that they could have spend the same past few months of their life in absolute boredom. Which do I want then?It has been a growing experience for me despite of all the storms I had to face.

Life is getting so complicated as we got older, lots of difficult decisions to make, got to handle lots of people with very different outlook and perspective in life. The responsibilites of adulthood are heavy and difficult to bear.

Well anyway, there is no conclusion to this entry, there is no way we can return to the simpler life of childhood and adolescent. Just rambling some thoughts....

I dive through a hole in the clouds!!!!

Sorry people that my blog has become so techinical for the past few days. Well, it all because of the preparation for my flight today. Have been quite stressed out over this, cause to be honest I was quite terrified of the maneuver. Still remembered that i had shaky hands for the rest of the day after I flown the maneuver in January.

Well after a long lay off for four months, I was terribly jumpy when I went down to the club house in the morning, keep trying to memorise stuff and read more stuff. I told the instructor my fears, he jus said calmly," there's nothing to be afraid of in doing stalls. I think if I were the instructor I would be even more afraid to have such a jumpy student.

Things didnt get any better later on, jus as I was starting to walk to the aircraft, my good friend CL message me the news "F16 crash, Singaporean pilot dies!" That really wasnt the best omen to have before a flight.

But the good thing was that I got to fly aircraft 9V-BOQ, the plane which I did my first flight on and which I took my Dad up in the air. It has been a long while, since I flown it as flights have been carried out in another aircraft.

I was initially quite lost when I clambered into the cockpit, things just seems foreign to me. And my radio calls sucks big time. Kept saying the wrong words over the radio.After start up, i realise my taxiing (driving the aircraft on the ground) has improved. Probably due to me driving so much in the past few months.

Taking off was fine, things doesnt seems that fast to me even though the take off speed was easily more than 140km/hr. Then the dancing in the sky started. Lots of planes were in the little aerial playground called Area Alpha, I was the last plane to be allowed to enter it for the morning. There were military choppers, little planes like mine, AirAsia jets coming in for maintainance etc... All of them were dancing around, streaking around, flopping around (the choppers) amidst the morning sun rays, the wispy clouds and shimmering sea and lakes. Told ya, old men drives sports cars and play golf, boys fly planes and dance in the air.

I did my dreaded stalls, it WAS EASY!!!I was shocked that I could do it so much better than the last time. The plane did plummet quite a bit when I forced the plane to stop flying. Then I managed to recover it quite easily...shocking really shocking.

Very soon after, cumulonimbus (Thunder)clouds began to form up quicky and started to box us in with its almost solid cottonwool walls. We cannot penetrate the cloud due to the regulations with "the Playground". We were sorta trapped, then my instructor spotted a hole forming up within one of the "thunder" clouds. He ordered to me go through that and I steered the aircraft and dive the plane right through the tunnel in that cloud. The experience was surreal almost fairy tale like as I dive through the hole. It was a beautiful sight, almost like going into wonderland when we were in the airborne "tunnel". Now the problems and pains of practicum, seems just so small. everything is so small and insignificant compared to the gigantic landscape in the air. The works of the "Creator" had me in awe truly..

I did two more touch and go on the runways before landing fully. My parking was atrocious, and in the end we ended up pushing the aircraft to its designated parking lines.Heehee...

Truly happy today, I had overcome my fear!!! More to come soon...

Weather for tomorrow morning....not too promising.

Predicted Weather for tomorrow at Changi airport, couldnt get any data for Seletar Airport.

2004/05/20 10:00
WSSS 201000Z 201212 18008KT 9999 FEW018CB SCT020
TEMPO 0106 4000 TSRA SCT012CB BKN015



Decoded TAF forecast for WSSS(Changi Airport)

Issue date/time: 20 May 2004, 10:00 UTC (20 May 2004, 18:00 SGT)
Valid date/time: 20 May, 12:00 UTC to 21 May, 12:00 UTC
(20 May, 20:00 SGT to 21 May, 20:00 SGT)

Forecast:
Wind from 180° at 8 kts (15 km/h)
Visibility 10 km (6 sm) or greater
Few clouds at 1800 ft, cumulonimbus
Scattered clouds at 2000 ft

Temporary from 01:00 UTC (09:00 SGT) to 06:00 UTC (14:00 SGT):
Visibility 4000 m (2.5 sm) in thunderstorms rain
Scattered clouds at 1200 ft, cumulonimbus
Broken ceiling at 1500 ft

Lets hope the weather predicted doesnt come true...
Very stressed out now about doing the stalls manuever for tomorrow morning.

P.S. XT your flight out to Jakarta in the evening should be fine if there are no major changes in the weather.The report is valid till 8pm tomorrow evening.

Start up and Taxi!!

Time to start the engine, stepping on the two footbrakes, I cast a glance to the left, right and the back to make sure no one is approaching the aircraft and called out loudy, "CLEAR PROP!!"

Placing my hand on the throttle, I turn on the master switch and turn the ignition to start position. The propeller starts to swing around a few times and the engine after coughing a few times, caught on...with a "BRAMMMMMMMMMM!!!"

Starting an aircraft engine is like firing an machine gun, the noise always suprises. One moment its nice and quiet with the plane rocking gently in the wind. The next moment, the noise of the engine is deafening without the headsets, the airframe vibrates with the running of the engine and the propeller create a strong gale behind the plane. Let put it this way, the plane feels like a Volkwagen Beetle with an engine three times as powerful as a Ferrari. So a little jot on the throttle will unleashed the beast.

Post Start Up Checks,
RPM 1100
Oil pressure rising
Avionic master ON
Starter warning Light OUT
Ammeter Charging
Suction Registering
Instruments Check
Avionics (Radio) Tuned and check.
Flaps UP
Fuel Select Right Tank
Magnetos Check both working

Time to Taxi, squeezing the little transmit button on the yoke, I called out."Seletar Ground, November 5748 Echo, request taxi for Area Alpha.Detail 1, Endurance 3, POB 2."

A bored voice on the radio replies,"November 5748 Echo, Seletar Ground, taxi to holding point Whisky 3, runway 03, QNH 1008."

I answered, "Whisky 3, 03, 1008, November 57 Echo."

The bored voice acknowledged, "November 57 Echo"

Releasing the brakes I taxied gingerly down the taxiway to Whiskey One. It is a strange sensation to steer a plane using your feet and not yr hands. The plane bounced along the bumps on the taxiway, the engine purring along the way. A twin turboprop swoop down onto the the runway parallel to the taxiway.

Clambering in..

Clambering into the cockpit of any aircaft is never an easy thing, always an awkward experience.The seat and controls are always in the way. Attaching yourself to the machine with its straps and cushions.Lots of clips to click, lot of levers to pull.

Once settled in, the hands will start their little dance on the controls, buttons and levers. Fuel select left tank.Trimmer set to neutral, cabin air control, pull on. Mixture, set to rich. Alternate static selector set to OFF position. Loosen the throttle nut, pull and pull the throttle a few times and then set to 1/4. Push and Pull a few times Carb Heat and set to off. Turn on beacon, check for popped circuit breakers.Avionic master set to off(IMPT!!). Primer, prime the engine three times and push in all the way. Instruments check for faulty instruments.

The preflight prayer as U.S navy aviators call it.
The control checks,

control yoke to the left, mutter prayer.(Father)
control yoke to the right, (Son)
Control yoke push forward all the way, (Holy)
Control yoke pull backward all the way, (Spirit)

Note down tachometer reading on the knee pad.
Final adjustment of seat and seat belts. Closed the door gently and put the latch to lock position.

All set to go...

The walk to the clouds

I Am preparing for a flight this friday. So will go through the checklists using the blog to help me remember the checks.Will be writing it in a story form to make it less technical and more readable.

The wind is blowing in from the sea, it is a five knot wind coming in at a bearing 005. I stroll out of the clubhouse, jumped into my Mr Toyota and drove towards the parking slots near to the aircraft. Parked the van,waved my access card at the policeman manning the gate, and stepped on the scorching tarmac and started walking towards the aircraft numbered N5784E.

The Cessna rocked gently on its undercarriage(wheels) as I slip the key into the keyslot and opened the door. Warm air rushed out of the cockpit as the door opens. The summer heat is getting terrible..I thought to myself.Remove the reflector from the windshield, and the control locks from the control yoke(airplane's steering wheel).

INTERNAL CHECKS

Preflight checks

Ignition check off,

Set the Parking Brake

Turn on the Master switch, (a whinning sound follows...)

Fuel gauge check

Anti collision light (turned on, glance to the tail and check that the blinking white lamp on the fin of the aircraft is lit up.Then turn it off.)

Turned on Pitot tube heat.

Turned on Navigation lights and landing lights.(Walked to the left wing, feel for the heat on the pointy pitot tube, then proceed to the left wing tip, and check that the red light is on.Check for the landing light below the propeller. Walked on to the right wing tip, and check for the green light.)

Lower the flaps in stages,

Master Switch off.

Trimmer check.

Fuel (select left tank)

Fire extinguisher check

First aid kit check

Crash Axe check

Torch light check

EXTERNAL CHECKS
Chocks removed

Climbed up the left side of the aircraft to check the wing upper surface and antenna.

Unscrew the fuel cap and dipped the fuel dipstick into the left tank, note quanity).

Climbed down and drain some fuel from the left tank to check for contamination.

Repeat the same for the right wing and right tank

Open the access panel on the Starboard (right) cowling. Check the oil level and drain more fuel to check for contamination.

Time to do the famous walkaround on the aircraft. (Tom Cruise did it in style in Top Gun. Of course that was a different aircraft:P )
I wont describe it in detail, as it is too lengthy and technical.

Basically, what I'll do is to walk around the plane, checking for loose or faulty parts and of course for leaks as well.

The Reason

(Being driving with this music alot...keeps playing on 98.7.):P

The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Cant sleep tonight...

I shouldnt be writing this entry, in fact I should be sleeping..but I can t sleep. And I need to walk up early tomorrow for a talk.

Today, I have had quite a fulfilling day, watch a movie wtih CL again, and had coffee with with CL and SW.Talk alot to KT today, and its been quite a while that I had such a cheery talk with KT ever since JM left. I was cheeky once again and teased her alot tonight..:p

I am especially grateful to CL, JS, XT and KT for being so patient with me all this while...I knew I have not being an easy person to be with these past few months, often moody and pessimistic.CL and JS despite of their busy scheldule have often took time to hang out with me to unwind and try to help me see things in perspective. KT has to put up with my temper sometimes when she try to talk to me, it wasnt easy as she has to handle another friend's moodiness as well. So I was glad she has been so patient all this while and continued caring.XT hasn't being in the best of situations lately but she continued to listened and prayed for me as well.I hope she can be strong and recover too.

I really am much better now. Thank you people.

However, tonight, I am sorry I have got to disappoint them a little...
You see i jus got to know that JM has gone to Korea for a holiday recently, and I saw a few photos of her in Korea.And I am thinking again. In fact, to be honest, I actually kinda feel pissed off to know that she was able to enjoy herself while all this while, I had to handle all that sadness and disappointment following her departure from my life. I know its selfish for me to have all these kind of thoughts....but I cant help it. I have not seen her for a while, and seeing pictures of her smiling, really brought back many memories of her.


She's NOT Freaking worth it boy, I keep telling myself. But I guess I just needed alot more time...While she keep insisting that it is her fault that everything happened. I know in the end, I am the one that is suffering , not her....

Lots of thoughts rage on in my head, lots of memories flash by,

I MUST BE STRONG, I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!AARRGH....

IS THERE NO ONE ELSE?!!!!...(ACHILLES)

Yep, you guess it, I watch TROY today with CL.It is an excellent show, watch one of my favourite actors in action, Monsieur Brad Pitt..Always loved his movies because even though he hardly acts in blockbusters, but his choice of films is often good. So whenever Brad Pitt is in a show I knew that show is gonna be good!!!:)

Cant stand "legolas"in the show...he was so wimpish and keep thinking he is Romeo. Respect Hector's role in the show, Eric Bana has once again shine in his role as a good warrior/hero like he did in "Black Hawk Down".And eh think "legolas"(Orlando Bloom) is once again a "cannot fight"warrior who needs rescuing by Eric Bana as he did in "Black Hawk Down". And of course, Mr Achilles, lots of stylish poses (Brad Pitt style) and man he fights like a kung fu master. COOL!!! And I like the way, Achilles organise his troops, it was very much more like modern day special forces formation.Achilles sort of remind of the Sergeant Major whom I once served under. We called him Staff Chang or more affectionately " Tua Chang" (Big Chang).

He was like Achilles, a very skilled and potent soldier with little regard for bureacracy or rank. An ex SEAL. Very fit and frightening when done in full battle gear. He took care of his men very well, and were very independent in his command. Like Achilles, he spent most of his life fighting, or dealing with warfare. Although he only had primary school education, he managed to lead all of us "A level" guys well and earned our respect. I hope i can earn the same amount of respect when I am out teaching the secondary school kids.

Looking back during my army days, I was a very aggressive man too,my dad was so surprised in the change in me during those days in green. While my aggressiveness has tamed down alot after all this years as a civilian. To the extent, that I feel that I am becoming wimpish and "legolas like" in TROY...*gasp* Cannot..Think I better get a little of that good old aggressiveness back. A bit of old "Thunder Voice Hoo" must return and I wont feel so helpless and vulnerable. Wonder what will JM think if she knew me during those days in green, I dun think she will penalise me for being too nice and gentle if she had seen me in my battle gear and camouflaged face.

Alright enough rambling for today...good night!!

Being thinking again...

Had a long day today...went to dover ITE, went NIE, brought the mechanic to see Mr Toyota, went AMK, went causeway point, went Tampinese, went tanjong pagar, went home.

Mr Toyota was sick since last night, refuses to start up. So could drive down to dover ITE today. And after all the traveling, went to get a mechanic to attempt to start the engine. Apparently the battery was worn out and needs replacement. So there it was a battery replacement and its engine was purring again.

Met up with chan and viv for dinner, the feeling is getting strange, I have become so used to being "third lamp". I dun even feel out of place. Nah..its because they are great people to hang out with, and the couple always ask me out. Today much to the dismay of Chan, I tempted viv into shopping and of course she bought some ladies stuff.hehe..

Sent them both home after the dinner, passed by Eunos link along the PIE, of course that was the exit to JM's place. Began thinking again...

Its being quite a while, since she left. Of course, I am in a better state than when she first left. Do I still miss her? Yes..Am i angry at what she had done?I would say yes..Do I blame her for her actions?Yes...do I still want to see her again? I am afraid yes as well....(stupid boy, many would say..)

I realise also, that my tolerance for ladies fickleness and their lack of care has fallen tremendously. I am indeed more impatient and less gracious than before. I hate myself for doing that, but I guess I just cant be as gracious as i want to be anymore.Sort of lost that energy and stamina. In other words, i am drained..

To be honest, I have no idea how to behave right now... should I be happy, forget about the past, and move on. Or should i take a break, and not get involved in relationships for awhile. And continue to take my time to heal the wounds, and that will of course made me think a bit...

Even if I decide on a course of action, can I really do it?...I tried moving on...but I cant bring myself to go through a date with someone...I cant bring myself to go through all the stages again.

I am messed up...big time messed up...I have messed up my life and I cant stop blaming myself for allowing it to happened...

Told ya I was thinking too much...

A nice mother's day celebration

Today is the first day of my "holiday" after practicum. Still I woke up early today to attend a workshop at teacher's network. Refusing to drive today after all the jams yesterday, my dad drove me down to the venue this morning.

The workshop was super boring and many of us were beginning to behave like NT kids.tapping tables, swapping the caps and ends of the coloured markers, throwing sweet wrappers etc... etc... And I slept during the lecture, the good old NT fashion.:P

Had lunch with KT, WQ and JN got a bit tired of hearing them complaining of their students and school though. To me it was over, however bad it has been, I really just dun want to be reminded of it. Met JS after lunch to have some good games on Generals. We were really getting good at the game...the computer didnt have much chance against us today. Here is the vocab that we always short when we were playing...

1. 给他憔悴!!
2. SCUD MISSILE READY!!
3. hOR Li xI!!! (给他死 in hokkien)
4. Line is Breached!!!
5. Line is holding...
6. HeLp!!!
7. Dun go over there, missile away!!!
8. SHIT!!!
9. Wah Liao!!!!!
10. 憔悴!!!!
11.#%&X@!!!!
12. Thats it for you!!!

Before the end of the last match, I had to abandoned JS to rush off for a family dinner that I had forgotten about. It was a dinner at sembawang hill, had crabs, fish, meat and lots of other goodies. My whole family together with the three rascals in my family were there today. The dinner was good but a little steep on the pricing though. Then the family went to play arcade at the club house....wasnt any good with the arcade machines though. My two bro in laws was much better...

After that the whole family drove down to sembawang park for a seaside walk...the three rascals spent the whole time staring at some other kid's hamster.While i went exploring a little. found a nice seaside cafe perched on the little slope over looking the beach. The cafe was built inside an old time seaside home and the ambience was very good with nice music and all. The name of the house was beautiful, its called beaulie house. The entire park was filled with fishermen, barbecuers and campers but a really serene and i must say joyful place.The walk was very relaxing and it also made me realise, I havent been spending much time with my family. Mama was really happy today with the three rascals taking turns to hug her, and for the first time her missing son (me) is finally with the family for dinner... I know she stills worries for me about JM leaving, all I could assure her is that I am recuperating and is trying to get my life and confidence back... well thats all for today.

Wish all those who read my blog, a happy mother's day.:P

THE GREAT DAY OF JAMS!!!!

Step on the clutch, engage first gear, step on the accelerator, the van moves, step on the clutch, engages second gear, step on the brakes, stop behind another vehicle, and wait, the cycle begins again...You can almost sing the song, "here jam, there jam everywhere jam jam, old vincent hoo is in a jam, eiyah eiyah oh..." contd on and on.

The roads in singapore are crazy today, I have been stuck in a jam since morning. Let me list the number of occurrrence jus for this crazy day.

1. Drove to school today, got stuck in massive jam.The school gate was closed by the time I reached school. (massive jam)
2. Drove from school to orchard, (moderate or normal orchard jam)
3. CTE, PIE to macpherson (massive jam)
4. macpherson PIE to eng neo for refueling (massive jam)
5. Eng neo to shell station (massive jam)
6. Shell station to BT gombak (moderate jam)
7. Bt gombak to home (massive jam)

Whats up with Singapore today, I am the one finishing practicum not the rest of you...so Singapore drivers, what's with every one coming out and clogging the roads man.:P

Today is my last day in CCKS...all the fellow trainee teachers were idle today.We have had no lessons today today as the school was having its mother tongue exams. We pack our stuff, played computer games, watch movies or simply hang around...

The stress and pressure was off our shoulders, we are totally relaxed.

Met up with both XT and AD today, XT was super tired during dinner.. She was walking slowly and looking almost as if she was drunk, guess she was too exhausted....wanted to catch a movie tonight but seeing her condition, dun think it was possible. So sent her home after dinner and I headed back.

Feeling that it was a little early to end a friday evening, so decided to call AD out for coffee tonight since practicum was over. He zoomed out in his Nissan and we both drove down to Aliff cafe.Haven t seen him for since practicum started... we had a long catch up session over tea and milo. Seems like he too went through a pretty rough experience during practicum.we chatted but took us a little while to warm up, guess we are both tired.

Yawn!!! :o Yawn...:o

Guess its time for bed....
More...later....

One more day to count down...

Taught my last lesson to CCKS today. The two sec 1 classes were a little out of hand when they were brought to the special room but it was ok. It was a real relief to know that the terrible practicum is indeed coming to an end. However there will be things to be missed as well. This is especially so for the company of the colleagues.

I remembered that I started out not really liking the company of the trainees. This was because they all seems so serious and competitive, and they were really stressing me out with all the seriousness that they portrayed. But now my perspective of them has greatly changed, they were all serious initially because they didnt know what to expect and wat to do.

Now the atmosphere is almost like family, in our little student centre isolated from the rest of the staff. We virtually live and work in that mock-up of an old time HDB flat. The cursing, the swearing, the silly jokes and pranks we all played on each other kept us sane in this very tough times... I could still rememeber the support that they gave when JM left me.Even though they didnt know much, they could see I was not well emotionally and managed to help out as much as they can.

Hanging out with them was quite a joy now, even with mr serious serious Lim YT. Even he can crack up and be a bit of a lunatic at times.Gonna miss them, but will try to stay in touch with them as much as possible.

something sweet for me today...

its my third last day at school for my practicum. As every day pass by the mood among us trainees gets lighter and light. We are all in the so called "ORD" mood. One of my colleagues keeps laughing all the time, even when she is scolding the kids.:0

Had my last day with my rascal class and my sec 2 class. The rascal class was of course as usual rascal...my sec 2 class was boisterous and noisy but on task. The students in the sec 2 class were a little sad about my leaving, but I didnt realise the extent of it until after school when two girls ran to the student centre and gave me a thank you note. They were really sweet, they keep running across the student centre (my office) wanting to pass me the note but they were afraid. So they probably walked pass the centre for like five times before they have the courage to pass me the note.

The words in the notes were really touching, they said that their geography had improved since I have started teaching them, and they like the class that i have conducted with them. They also apologise for their misbehaviour in class and hope I dun take it too personally. Finally they said I look cute in short sleeves shirt and drew a huge Chinese bun and said that my face look like "Pao"...hmm wat a compliment..... ?? :/

Finally to top it up, they drew using their fingers a huge heart shape with my name in it, on the windows of my office. And my colleagues keep saying, hey you have an admirer!! Emabarrasing it was but it was a welcoming to hear that my "clients" are happy about my teaching. I placed the thank you note together with the worst APT forms that I have received. And I can see deeply the contrast. It sure feels so much better whereas jus two short weeks ago I was on the edge of giving up this career when i keep receiving very bad evaluation from a particular superior.

Anyway time for bed. More later..:P

What a day....

Woke up in the morning to preparing to go to CL's mum wake. Decided to tell JY about it, and she got woken up by my call. SM and the rest of the Mei Ling Street party have already set the time to move off at 11. So asked JY to be ready at 1130 where I will pick her from her home. It was terrible news when I found out about CL' mum passing. His mum seems so healthy and I cannot recall CL ever mentioning about her having any health problems. But she pass away so sudden so quick...was really shocked.

Was on my way, when JS messaged me and I decided to tell him about it despite that CL saying that there is little need to tell too many people about it.Good man JS is, despite of the condition of his leg. He immediately set out for Seng Kang. I picked him up at YCK and drove him down to the wake. CL seems ok and was still in the mood to crack jokes. Its good to know that he is taking it well. He has always being the big brother strong sort, and I am glad he has got a lot of support from his brother,SH and his Godparents during this very difficult time for him. Being a reserved guy I know he is the sort who would not ask for help. But I must reassure him that all his friends will be here for him.:)

Another thing worth mentioning, was that today was the first time that I finally saw JY again. Its has been a long four months since we fell out with each other. We have been back to talking terms for awhile, and have been trying to go out together. But my busy schedule has not allow me to do that till today. She have slimmed down quite a bit and look a little more tired than before. It was such a strange feeling to stand at her void deck waiting for her waiting for her to come down to the van. When she entered the van, a familar scent permeated the cabin. And a little smile came to my face, she was back.

Jus a few months ago, we had such a big quarrel. And in that we both said many hurting words. And I thought, that was it, I have lost the good friend that I have had in her. I was really sad then.JM 's prediction was right....JY will come back and she did.